Not done... probably being deleted by tomorrow.

I want to be an Artist when I grow up. Either that or a ballerina-princess-astronaut.

By Marie E. O’Shaughnessy

!!The following is a highly opinionated excerpt from my mind. There is little to no research done and any statistic not supported with evidence or any comment on generations are not backed up by any real resources unless stated otherwise.!!

I don’t know about your generation but for mine, my parents, and all in-between this is a question we were given to think about and expected to know the answer since we were little “What do you want to be when you grow up?. This question along with “what’s your favorite colour?” or “what’s your favorite food?” YOU YOU YOU it’s all about YOU! Then we hit a certain age (I really can’t recall when I hit this age ) where you are expected to have narrowed it down. When it changes from the simple childhood dreams to “HEY lets change your dream jobs to something more specific like marine biologist” and things like your favorite colour or food just become something you don’t really talk about. Drawing a picture of your family becomes stupid and pointless. You are on a strict code of “don’t brag about yourself” except when you are expected to get a job then all of a sudden you jump back to “what are you good at? What makes YOU special?” that’s a point not mentioned above, and all together you get a big fat whooping identity crisis.

There is so much expected of us and so little actual living. I find myself spending so much time trying to live up to society standards that I can’t “be myself” whatever that is. North America is the ever flowing society of production, too much means for the demand. Too much waste for the valued. Too much focus too little “Dolce Far niente”.

I have big dreams, no ambition. Big self hopes, little restraint. Sometimes I’m asked why I did something… and I can’t answer it. I feel as though I embarrass my family, friends, and least of all myself. See what I did there? I put everything in the order I am expected to… depending who you are talking to. If you are talking you your family you come second. Your friends? Well you come last of course! Why in the hell would you be more important than them? That’s just selfish.

As one movie that slightly glamorised, yet accurately captured the struggle of personal appearance, Mean Girls.

Regina: “You’re so pretty!”

LL: “Thanks!”

Regina: “So you agree, you think you’re pretty?”

I feel like that perfectly describes the struggle of personal identity. If you say thanks to a complement than of course you agree and are bragging about the complement.

So

There is always so much and so little to say
You get a spark to a new idea, but it fizzes like an ash in the ocean.

"If every angels terrible then why do you walk on them"

We put faith into things we don't fully know.
We kill, we taint, we judge.
So much for the unknown.

Its sad, it really is.
Why has this unknown been the base of so much.

Beyond Comprehension? Yes yes it is.
When killing in the name of an "idol" most don't have much more to say but
   "Because he/she loves me"
or
 "To protect the word of..."
Killing is never just, I don't care what your argument might be, this is my solid belief.

Blue,
A color so simple, yet who knows if we all see it the same?
Who knows how every aspect of life is seen by anyone... you never will.
Why would we have just set expectations of everyone when this is most definitive, this is the case.

Be an artist, a rebel, something new.
If not for you then do it for your one fan... we all have one... don't take them for granted.
It may be your mother, family, friend, or just someone walking by you on the street.

Don't try to be you... just be!
-Marie

A Beginners Degree in Sarcasm

Fact, no one is better at sarcasm than Daria.

Sarcasm according to Wikipedia 

"Sarcasm is "a sharp, bitter, or cutting expression or remark; a bitter jibe or taunt",^[1] usually conveyed through irony or understatement.^[2] Most authorities distinguish sarcasm from irony;^[3] however, others argue that sarcasm may or often does involve irony^[4] or employs ambivalence.^[5]. The word comes from the Greek σαρκασμός (sarkasmos) which is taken from the word σαρκάζειν meaning "to tear flesh, gnash the teeth, speak bitterly"

(extracted May 24, 2012 from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sarcasm ) 

Wile I can never duplicate her blunt and clever sarcasm I thoroughly am inspired. Anyways not to be too tacky, I just wanted to make a tribute. VOILA! Any-who here's some screen shots I enjoyed.

Ahh the reoccurring lasagna and forced fatherly smile from Jake. 

The ending credits are full of bad ass pictures of the characters dressed up.

Ah the occurring pizza... I screen shot a little late but was too lazy to fix it.

Daria dressed up like her sister Quinn.

Best character clash of the show, Army prof and man hating female teacher.
I think his fear face explains who is the feared.

Any-who that is all.

-Marie Erin

Why Girls Hate Each Other

Finders Keepers DIY

 This year may you:

Play with fire

Paint a rock

Make gorgeous jewelry from Fake flowers, wire and chain

 CUT, Stud and PASTE

Thrift

f

 Rediscover sheets and books from years before

Experiment

May the Year of the dragon bring your Daemon fortune!

Happy holidays and what not.

Cool D.I.Y.'s/inspiration! Anybody wants????

Hemp!
This first link is a link to other links. Providing a picture would be pointless

http://diyfashion.about.com/b/2008/10/20/how-to-tie-an-alternating-knot.htm

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UIQIQ_nknKg&feature=related 

Above is a picture of a hemp toggle bracelet.
http://diyfashion.about.com/od/bracelets/qt/Hemp_Bracelet.htm 

Dye!

http://www.howtotiedye.net/

So this is a pretty good description of a tie dye kit, but am for sure going to figure out the cheapest, most effective, and most eco version possible. That's kinda my thing... seeing as I never have money.
http://www.madebyhippies.com/tiedyekit/

This ideas so cool!
http://fashionablygeek.com/t-shirts/diy-captain-america-tie-dye-shirt/

N.Joi

-M.E.

ITS ALMOST CHRISTMAS!!!!

If I could write a Haiku for the cosmetics industry it would go something like this:
I say I will fix all of your problems in life
I most likely don't

So basically this is just me spewing my perspective briefly.
Don't be a slave to the cosmetics industry. Find out what makes things work and then decide if its for you. find a small handful of products that work for you and stick with it. If its really your passion explore all you want, but when I hit puberty I went from "OMG IF I GET 1BILLION PRODUCTS WITH MY PARENTS MONEY THAT ILL BE A SEXY MOVIE STAR!!!" no... now im trying to size down but i have a hoarding problem... err... I never use any of this stuff... or most of the stuff that makes my life a heavy burden... i want to be able to pack my life up in 2 suitcases. Right now... it better be two fucking BIIIIIIIG suitcases!

Have a Great XMASS EVE! (p.s. next year im celebrating the pagan version of Christmas... its way cooler)
-Love M.E.

It shouldn't be this way

Im sitting in bed with the 2 coolest blankets in my parents house. The oldest of the two was made by a great grandma or aunt for my mother and is next to the coziest crochet blanket ever. Its not soft or fuzzy or anything special but it just has the best aura. the second blanket is the first bedspread my mom bought for herself when she moved out of her parents. Its just a cotton stuffed white blanket with little blue flowers.

I sit here and hate on my life. Its my xmass break and all I can be is the most unoptimistic  person in the house.

I guess all I can do is listen to a little Jefferson Airplane Woodstock footage and go to bed.

Cant sleep... Maybe music will help

Double Dog Dare

I dare you
-Go out and buy a new flavor of tea (I bought one recently with lavender, peppermint, and many other herbs. Its called calm down or something like that)
- Take a reaaaaly long bath. Add salts, oatmeal, tea, honey, scents, bath bombs, WHAT EVER YOU HAVE in your kitchen light a candle, read a book, or just breath. I like eating food in the bath, makes me feel like a Egyptian/Greek/Roman goddess /i want to get little boats like in the Elizabeth Taylor version of Cleopatra. I think I might get a book on making boats and just apply the measurements to quarter scale and make a bunch of little ships... Yes that's a great way to spend my X-mass holiday... but actually it is
- Learn a new language, not necessarily the whole thing, but maybe basics like Hey, Howya doin, Wheres the bathroom, do you like apple pie? What ever floats your boat!
- Find or explore something that you don't like in the world and take action on it! What ever it is! As Grandmother willow from Pocahontas said, even the tiniest ripples make a difference. They are better than no ripples at all.
- Don't brush your hair for a week, and wash it every other day with a bio degradable shampoo... you don't know if you like it till you try. If your going to do this id say stock up on dry shampoo and wide-tooth combs. and educate yourself in dreading, cuz i have partial dreads in the sense that i separate my hair and palm roll the sections, it keeps my messy hair in check.

Simple fun Sunday (for 1 more hour.)

Try these two things:
1. Stand in front of a mirror, close one eye, and trace your face on the mirror.
2. Draw your hand with the hand that you're drawing. 
-Marie Erin

Time to breath!

I started fashion Design this year at Fanshawe Collage in London, Ontario.
Let me first just say WOW! I have been doing homework all night every day pretty much since Sunday... and I mean Sunday of last week...
Anywho time for a break, and time for some eye candy... and ear candy???


25 ways to wear a scarf



One Octave Up by Adi Ulmansky



Vanessa by Grimes



Enjoy
-Marie Erin

Movies

All I need in life is really good movies, soy candles and good incense.
A real artsy movie is timeless
here is my short list!

-Lolita

-Factory Girl

-Memoirs of a Geisha

Well three for now.
I mean, it is my lucky number!


-Marie Erin

Ginger Soda

Head aches?
Nausia?
Upset tummy?
or just plain hungover?


Ginger ail works great but has so much sugar in it. Why not make your own medicine! Cheep easy and bad ass!!


1 medium sized ginger root
2 liters of club soda/soda water/ carbonated water (I prefer club soda)
A jug, bowl or what ever!


Cut the ginger root into thin strips, then combine all of the above in your jug or bowl of choice, place in the fridge and wait. Its not a set recipe you can add more or less ginger,  leave it in the fridge anywhere from 1 hour- over night and shake gently occasionally.. Strain into glass(es) and serve with ice and or lemon wedges (this is optional, the scent of lemon helps with nausea).


 CURED!!!
-Marie Erin

Why?

First off listen to this.



"Turn the television off, cousin, that ain’t nothing for a girl to see
I’ve got a niece and best believe she mean the world to meand she don’t need to see the shit that they think a girl should be"
First of I fully agree with this. As I have said before we have this ideal woman placed in our minds wither we realize this or not. there are so many things wrong with television and media, do the good really weigh out the bad?


"ninety pound skinny bitches that ain’t even girl to me
essentially this shit designed to take a hold of youtelling lies till your vision takes control of you"
WOah...woahhh... wait... so you cant yell "go on a diet" but you can yell at us who are twigs by gene "go eat a sammage!!"...... you say what?????? Kay I agree, not everyone should be on a diet or ashamed of their bodies, but seriously? How hypocritical is that?


"they finding different ways to take your fucking soul from you
a show about a model make your self esteem low for you
everything is fake trust me no one that lovely
I’ve met a lot of famous people and they fat and ugly"
The rich and famous are very much edited and what not, same with models. This is horrible for everyone young and old. The stakes are set too high. We should identify this and move on. Until society stops being so fucking fascinated with this culture we wont change. 


"I ain’t any better I just think the fact is funny
that they’ll take a little girl and pimp her for the cash and money
and whats gonna become of them in like fifty years
when Hannah Montana turning into Britney spears
they chew you up and spit you out cus no one really cares
and aint nobody gonna hold you when you really scared
where the parents at cousin this is really bad
is this the motherfucking manager or really dad
is he concerned about his daughter or his silly pad
this aint gonna change nothing I jus think this is really sad"
Nuff said. 


-Marie Erin

I am Me

you "I am me? Isn't that obvious?"

me "Yes but are you happy with you? Do you look at your face and think, I like what I see! There's no improvement I would make to this face!"

you "Yes, but no, my skin is all blotchy. I think I'm going to buy that moisturiser that evens out my skin tone. That will fix everything"

me "Yes maybe it will work, and maybe it wont. What will you do if it doesn't?"

you "Well that's what foundations for, isn't it?"

I don't know the answers to life, but I think its rather sad that our world has come to this. I look in the mirror and I cringe at my skin. I inspect every bump and scar. Is this really the way life's supposed to be? Are we supposed to dislike what we are? No, if you think about it, a few red spots on your face isn't that big of a deal/ Preteens and teenagers sometimes stay home from school when they have a breakout, or stand in front of mirrors hating themselves. This is so wrong. So much for the "American Dream", North America the land of happiness and fulfilment. How is this so when we are conditioned to hate our skin. You are not more successful if you have perfect skin. Your not a better person, your not a nicer person, BLABLABLA. Now, I'M not trying to bring those with perfect skin down, all I am saying is that those of us with spots that no face wash or skin regimin will fix shouldn't stress ourselves out SO FRIGGEN MUCH. We need to learn to look at skin a different way.

Love yourself for who you are♥
-Marie Erin

E is for Emotions.

We all have them, we all have different levels of them, and we all scrutinize ourselves for our emotions at least one point in our lives.

When it comes to emotions there isn't always an answer for controlling them. No two people are alike, and while I strongly believe a world without emotions as we know it would be a boring one and we should embrace it, I constantly curse the "heavens" for it being so.

All it takes is an image, scent, or sound, that triggers a memory so change a good day to a horrible day.

I wish it were as easy as 1-2-3 but sadly no, changing your own mind can prove to be difficult at time.

Anyways, nothing works better than keeping a journal and venting to a pal. Though in my experience, there is only so much venting one can take, most people don't want to hear how upset you are daily... kinda gets a little annoying.

This has been a note to self and a note to you!

-Marie Erin

Lets Think About it.

First off watch this.


Now think, how much of your routine do you do because its whats done? What do I mean whats done? I mean because its what your mother did, your friends do, the media says YOU SHOULD do. Whens the last time you have actually questioned "Why do we do this?". Whether its cosmetic, religious, routine, or just plain old diet. I find my family has become increasingly lazy over the years. We drive what would take us ten minutes to walk, we eat more frozen prepared foods, and we do things just because its the way we've been doing it for years. What frustrates me the most is the simplest, when we are making food or pouring a glass of milk, and we leave the fridge open the WHOLE TIME. Ridiculously simple I know, it only wastes a little energy (despite the fact that it adds up over time), but we never think about the simple.


Convenience stores, frozen food, driving everywhere.


GAAAA


My friends are so perplexed why I don't have my drivers licence and why on earth i would EVER... EEEVAARR want to take the buss, bike or walk.


I know this is a little off topic from the video I posted but Laci really gets me thinking. She always states a valid question that makes me question the way my life is right now.


I do so much because its routine.


We do so much because its how its done.


Its amazing how humans adapt to whats around them and bodies of people can be almost identical but when someones different they are scrutinized. Really they should be celebrated, its easy to be like those around you but hard to step out as an individual.


Your not a lost cause just because you are the way you are. Shine beyond that belief.

-Marie Erin

Who? What? When? Where? Why?

WARNING THE FOLLOWING POST IS RAMBLING. I DID NOT STRUCTURE MY PARAGRAPHS IN ANY WAY.
People have lost their touch, everything always has to MEAN something. Now I'M all for poetry, philosophy, and what-not but I just need to ask that question. WHY must everything MEAN something?

I say this while being ironic, pondering why we ponder. Regardless the question still stands.

Can we always blame the media? What has become of monogamy, is it really "an institution that's in decay"?

While I ponder this I realize, life has changed, not for me, but for humanity. The concept of what life was is now under question. Its acceptable to have or not have religion. its acceptable to be black white or what not. Its acceptable to or not to be married. Its acceptable to or not to be a stay at home mother(f.y.i I am not but my mother is.). Its acceptable to be gay. While all these things are accepted be still scrutinize and over analyze, so much so that we don't realize life isn't black and white, life is a chain of decisions that used to have those strong social barriers on them but now the chains are broken. With these broken chains we do not know what to do. They still remain reminding us of what we once were, some still follow the beliefs of the past.

Identity crisis

-Marie Erin

Warm air, Cool breeze, Sparkling Pool.

I've been short on words lately. In a very pensive state. Heres some eye candy!

-Marie Erin